FFP#15 – Confession of a Bounty Hunter
A series of small explosions erupt around me as I enter the warehouse, setting off an internal organic earthquake, one that shakes my body from the inside out, causing my muscles to contract and my Pelvic Floor Device, an enhancement that creates an invisible, electrical shield over my skin, to activate itself. No matter how hard I try to relax, I just can’t get the PFD to retract.
I should stop, I tell myself. Something’s wrong and I can’t fix it. But a little technical difficulty has never stopped me before. So I run toward the elevator and leap into the shaft, grabbing the steel ropes that extend the length of the empty passageway. Sparks ignite as I climb.
When I reach the second floor, I jump into the room and find myself kneeling before the slender silhouette of my sister. Around her, a cloud of dust and smoke slowly settles. To her right, crates are stacked ceiling-high. To her left, the room stands bare. A window that’s been boarded-up with a plank of splintered wood lets in a weak stream of light. My sister is in full protective gear: miniature capsulated bombs hang from the wide belt that hugs her waist, a black helmet hides her face, tight gloves shield her hands.
“Teresa,” I say, standing up carefully. I haven’t seen her in years and her name feels strange in my mouth. “Teresa.”
She doesn’t flinch.
For some reason, and from some dusty corner of my mind, I remember how beautifully she played the piano when she was younger.
“Teresa,” I say again. “I want to help.”
“Thanks, Sis,” she says. “But I don’t need your kind of help.”
She comes at me then, knocking us both to the ground, her knee digging into my side. But I’m older, more experienced, and with one easy move, I flip her onto her back. Straddling her torso now, holding her down by her wrists, I try to get her to talk, to listen — but she just wants to fight. We should go at it right then and there, get out all of our aggressions, past and present, release the hurt that handicapped our childhoods and fueled our failed adulthoods. She wants to fight, wants to prove to me, to the world, to herself that she’s strong and proud and better than me. But I’m just as stubborn as she is and there’s no way I’m going to let her win.
“You want to fight, baby sister?” I say.
She struggles against my grip, and in the scuffle I pull off one of her gloves. Her bare hand — those fingers haven’t changed much, as long and bony as ever, the nails cut short and buffed to a shine.
“You call that fighting?” she says and laughs. “What? Are you going to pull my hair next, bitch?”
I rip off her mask and we both fall silent. Just like that. There she is. That familiar face. That face so much like mine, yet nothing at all like mine. A new scar decorates her left cheek, thin and winding, a silvery blemish that only makes her more beautiful.
“Get off me!” she yells, finding her voice again, which is almost child-like in its demand.
“Teresa,” I say.
“That’s not my name anymore,” she growls. “We’re nothing anymore.”
She rolls me over, pushing her knees into my chest. Her gloved hand grips my neck, her claws dig into my jaw, pinch at my throat. I try to pry her fingers apart but I can’t.
My eyes water as I fight to breathe. She clenches her free hand — her bare hand — into a tight fist and slams it into my face. But when her flesh touches mine, I feel nothing. Her body shivers violently, flopping away from me like a fish drowning in air.
Electrocuted. The electrical armor that covers and protects my skin, the PFD I’d chosen to equip myself with, the PFD she couldn’t afford, had horribly malfunctioned.
Her mouth contorts, her eyes bulge. I push her convulsing body off mine. Her naked fingers twitch in an uneven rhythm, the tips blackened. A flare falls from her belt and rolls near her head, bursting into flames, setting her hair on fire.
She doesn’t scream, doesn’t make a sound as her tongue pulsates in her mouth. I slap at her hair with my hands, trying to put out the fire, ignoring the searing pain as my fingers and palms burn. “Don’t die,” I hear myself saying. “Please God, don’t let her die.” But it’s too late for my feeble prayers.
#
Long ago, Teresa and I led normal lives and we loved each other as sisters do. But somehow along the way we lost each other. We were no longer sisters, but soldiers, good soldiers, each fighting for a different cause. When peace came, too little, too late, how could we even look at each other? How could we be family again? We were still lost. Left on our own, just trying to survive the best way we knew how, we chose professions that eventually made us gods and forbade us mercy.
It was her job to kill me, my job to hunt her down. We just found each other at the wrong time.
This is what I think about at night. I don’t close my eyes, I can’t. I’d only see her face. Instead, I listen to the rest of the world sleeping and fucking and living.
Would anything have changed if she knew my love was unconditional? Would it have made a difference in her broken mind to know that in an abandoned storehouse in another land, I had kept the shoddy upright piano of our youth?
#
I skip the burial and escape to that faraway place, to the country that harbors one of the last remnants of us. In appearance, the piano hasn’t changed a bit after all these years. I touch a few of the keys, play a song that our father had taught us, try to remember the words but can’t. The piano has been in storage for years and the keys stick, the notes out of tune and sad. The pedals wheeze for relief.
I know what I have to do. I smash the piano to bits. I splinter the wooden panels, let the stained, ivory keys fall to the ground with heavy and toneless clinks. I bury the hammers and strings in the blackest, most worm-infested dirt. I burn the rest of it, but it burns slowly and I’m impatient for its full destruction.
I want to destroy every last remnant of our past. I want to annihilate this guilt and grief before they consume me. I want to do everything I can to forget her.
One day, I will no longer seek absolution. One day, I’ll be able to say, “Yes, I killed my sister. Now there’s nothing left for me to lose.”
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April 18, 2010 11:50 pm
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